Hiding in Plain Site – A Poem About Grief

Hiding in Plain Site

 

I’m here

But I don’t want to be

And its not your fault

 

I don’t know how to be myself right now

 

Something has come between us

I feel it

 

But it has no words

To work with

 

It’s not just

 

Anxiety

Depression

Fear

Irritability

Grief

Or shyness

 

I’m not avoiding you

Because

I don’t like you

Or am upset with you

 

I just don’t know what to say

Or how to say it

 

Right now

There is so much

Going on

Inside me

 

I am so preoccupied with everything I am going through

 

I feel bad

I can’t quite be

Fully present or engaging

 

You feel so far away

I don’t feel like I have the energy

To meet you

Where you are

 

It’s cramped

In here

 

I’m alone but with you in spirit

 

And don’t want to bother anyone

I don’t feel I have anything good to offer anyone

I don’t want to bring you down

 

I don’t want you to catch

My disease

Even though

I know you cannot

 

I sometimes feel this way

 

All I really want to say is that I love you

And only want the best for you

And I am here as much as I can be right now

And I hope you understand.

 

 

Tavius Dyer Monday August 8, 2016

Posted in Holistic, Personal, Perspectives, Recovery.

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